And I can breathe again…

For the last 22 months I have had a large block weighing me down. It has been there daily each time I look to something new. It has been the thorn in my side. I have spent much of my free time guilting myself about it, knowing that while I was off  enjoying other things it was sitting there in my driveway waiting for me. It has loomed over my garden and everything I do.

Finally today I let it go….

You see 22 months ago I moved out of my house for my earthquake repairs to be completed, at that time there was a lot of my late husbands business paraphernalia and general items collected over 45 years living in the same house that I did not know what to do with.

These things were mostly not sentimental to me. Some of them I didn’t even know the origin of or even what they were. When the time came to move out I could not throw these things away nor did I have time to list them for sale on trade me or to hold a garage sale. So I hired a shipping container to put them in.

It was, at the time, the perfect solution. It gave me the breathing space to decide what to do. For 22 months the container has sat in my driveway. It has sat there reminding me I still had a job to do and it was a much bigger job than I anticipated.

I opened the container numerous time in the first 12 months only to feel overwhelmed by the task at hand and to shut the door again.

In the next 6 months I managed a little progress, a few items removed, given away or donated.

In the last 4 months I have slowly worked my way through it, listing things on trade me, sorting, throwing a way, donating.

Last month I put a deadline on it and booked the date for collection, knowing I work best under the pressure.

Yesterday it was finally empty and although I still have a few items to sell and  a couple of boxes to sort through the job is finally done!

This morning I got out of the shower to discover the truck had arrived to collect it and finally, joyfully I waved it Goodbye.

I feel lighter, I feel I can breathe easier, I feel that a weight has lifted. I feel energy moving more freely around my garden and my life. I am beginning to understand some of the information I have read on Feng Shui and clearing the clutter.

Every time you let go of something it creates space, creates ripples of movement, creates a greater sense of freedom.

I think Wayne Dyer says it best ” As I unclutter my life I free myself to unclutter the callings of my soul”

I certainly feel the impact of that today. Having the container contents on my to do list for so long has held me back from embracing the new, from re-inventing myself and from stepping fully into who I am becoming.

My thoughts turn to what else in my life needs to be cleared, where I need to simplify and let go and I realise that its about more that just physical things for me.

I am building a new concept of who I am and what I am capable of after 10 years of performing the same roles and that also requires some clearing. I am aware of both old ways of thinking that it is time to let go of and of new ways of being that I have been afraid to embrace.

Once again I am reminded that our outer world reflects our inner world.

This weeks project: clearing the internal clutter

” Clutter is not just the stuff on the floor, its anything that stands between you and the life you want to be living” Peter Walsh

What do you need to clear, throw away, donate or sell that is weighing you down? What internal clutter needs clearing in your life? feel free to share in the comments below

 

 

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