2015’s Last Post…

Its pretty standard at this time of the year to reflect on the past 12 months and to begin to anticipate what lies ahead as we turn the page to a fresh New year. I’m sure many of you having been doing this over the last few days, some of you looking forward to the year being over, others madly setting goals for what 2016 will be.

As I have been formulating this blog post over the last few days I too have been reviewing my year and the gifts and challenges it delivered. I have felt called to review my writing and in particular a blog post I wrote just over a year ago  “No more cardboard moments”  This blog post was about what makes life memorable and how easy it can be to live on the surface of life, not really engaging with your experience. At the time I wrote it I felt a strong desire to be fully present, to soak up every second and to make sure my moments were memorable. I can certainly say the 2015 has delivered on this front. I have felt more connected, more alive and happier than ever before.

My personal theme for 2015 was “going deeper” I wanted a deeper connection to myself, to my work, to spirit, to the people in my life and to life itself and to be deeply present with what life delivered.

I have discovered a new level of enjoyment and satisfaction in my work. I have had time to notice those urges and ideas that flit through my brain on a regular basis. A new level of connection with what I do and what I desire has emerged.

Deepening into the present moment has bought the added joy of increasing and deepening my friendships and has drawn new relationships into my life. I have more people in my life that I can be completely real with than ever before. I have also experienced subtle shifts with complete strangers. More people on the street offering a good morning when I am out for my walk and after years of weekly airplane travel where I would put my head down and actively discourage communication from those around me, I have been treated to fascinating travel companions keen to share their story. Even the checkout operator at the supermarket has had a kind smile and a more genuine enquiry of my day.

All this makes me wonder about that way the world works. I have a quote written on my hallway mirror ” change the way you view things and the things you view will change” This has proven to be true in my life over and over. When we shift our perspective we are rewarded with greater understanding, a deeper experience of all that life has to offer but the outside appearance of our life is still exactly the same.

Instead of waiting for things to change, bemoaning that which isn’t there is a constant invitation to shift your experience, to weave a richer fabric from your everyday. 2015 has presented me with many opportunities to do just that.This year has delivered me some truly magic moments some of them in the simplest of circumstances.

I have also been challenged to step outside my comfort zone, to confront my fears full on. I have had to accept that I can and often do isolate myself. I actively lessen my ability to experience the life I desire because it scares me. It is easier for me to stay safely secluded in my own world than it is to venture out into the richer, deeper life I desire.  Going deeper asks us to be more real, to own our feelings and to ask for what we truly want. I have had to take steps forward, to be honest with myself and others and to confront the terror of having what I really want.

Desire is an interesting animal. While we are without the object of our desire we have it as our sole focus, it distracts us from “what is” with what “could be”. When we get what we want we no longer have that distraction and it can be very disarming to fully immerse yourself in enjoying what its like to have that thing, to be present with it. We can almost become so addicted to wanting that we prefer that experience over deepening into having what it is we have wanted for so long.

I can safely say there have been no “cardboard moments” in 2015. I have lived life deep and in full colour. I have found true rewards in taking the risk to go confidently in the direction of my dreams. I am filled with gratitude for what this year has delivered me…the pleasure, the pain, the joy, the fear, the love, the grief, the frustration, the peace and the contentment. As I turn my thoughts to 2016 I know I want more of the same.

I invite 2016 to deliver me more deep experiences and connections, more love, more growth, more conscious creation and more space, time and freedom to enjoy it!

Bring on 2016!

What gifts did 2015 bring you? what are you inviting from 2016? I’d love to read about it in the comments below

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One thought on “2015’s Last Post…

  1. Priscilla

    Hi Paula,

    What gifts did 2015 bring me?
    I was promoted in January to a senior position but my joy was overshadowed by the jealous, bullying behaviour of a male work colleague who believed the job should’ve been his. In February I lost my dad and whilst I was on bereavement leave that same colleague single-handedly split my team in two, spread malicious gossip, filled my inbox with nasty emails and continued to lobby for my job. In March – April my job was advertised with me still in it so I applied. In April – May I received a letter declining my application and asking me to continue my job all in the same paragraph. Confused? Yeah me too…..anyway by this time changes were occurring so I accepted and took myself overseas to get away from the drama and to remind myself of how lucky I am to have the life that I have amongst other things. 8 months and several storms, tornadoes, hurricanes and floods (metaphorically speaking) later….I’m still the interim. Go figure!

    What are you inviting from 2016?
    I invite 2016 to deliver me lots of positive energy, positive people and positive situations that provoke positive changes in mine and everyone’s lives. I also give thanks to Papa (God), the Archangels, my Guardian Angels, my whanau in spirit, my animals, close friends and whanau in life for your unconditional love and support. Without you I am nothing, with you I am some one who is loved, cherished and valued beyond words.

    Namaste
    Priscilla

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